The starting summer starve.

So today was the first day of the diet and I'm already changing the game plan. Don't worry I'm still doing the liquid diet but I don't think that everyday I will be able to drink 3 cups of pure green tea so the only guideline for this diet is to drink at least a gallon of plain water per day. So besides water and my multi-vitamin, here are all the things that have entered my body today:
7:00- Weight Watchers Big Latte Bar (ice cream)- 90 calories
12:30- Crystal Light Rasberry Green Tea-10 calories
1:15- Liptons Green Tea ( from tea bags)- 0 calories
2:30- V-fusion Pomegranate Blueberry- 100 calories
8:30- V-8 (low sodium)- 70 calories
FOODS:(
5 macadamia nuts- about 100 calories
Random amount of crackers(back to nature white cheddar rice thin crackers)-200 calories
EXERCISE
Half-hour on weight machines(-200 calories?)
One hour on crossramp (-500 calories?)
Half-hour of Dance Dance Revolution (-150 calories?)
TOTAL
about -250 calories

Obviously the excersice calories will be a little bit off. And to explain the crackers; before we went to the gym we stopped at the store because she wanted some nuts so I grabbed some crackers to not look weird. The crackers actually don't seem that bad. The serving size is 18 crackers (130 calories)and there are 4 servings per box. I'm going to split up the rest of the box to snack on for the next few days. Oh and by the way since I have last talked to you guys I have gone to the gym pretty much every Monday through Thursday.

-Alaska

Long time no type.

Wow it has been awhile since I have posted anything, but lucky for you, you haven't missed anything important. School is out for the summer now and there is a week until summer off season starts so I want to take advantage of this upcoming week as much as possible by doing something that is 10 times as hard to do while soccer starts; liquid diet. Starting tomorrow I will be drinking 1 gallon of water and 3 cups of green tea (along with my multi-vitamin). I plan to do this for at least 3 days, I would love it though if I lasted all week though.(:
Oh and this is sort of off topic but the only meat I eat now is fish. I haven't eaten mammals since the summer of 2007 ( about 3 years), and now I haven't eaten any bird in 2 months now. The longest I have ever gone without eating bird is like 4 months but now I am determined to not eat it for good. I hate when dumb people in my town say " Oh, so your a vegetarian?". No, I'm obviously not if I still eat some form of meat! In the long run I do want to evolve into a vegetarian, possibly even vegan, but I don't have the willpower to just stop eating all forms of animal over night. I honestly look up to vegans and vegetarians so much because they do hold that willpower.
So anyway I will write on this blog during this new diet I'm doing because in a way this blog keeps me focused on my goal. It feels like sometimes this is the only place I can come where I have never lost myself. Tomorrow morning maybe I will rake up the courage to weigh myself, I haven't stepped on the scale since after my big liquid diet during Christmas Break. My guess is is that I weigh near 125, but I guess we will hopefully see tomorrow.

-Alaska

Recent diet.

I thought I should update you guys on what I've been eating lately.
For about a week now I have been only eating progresso light soups. Well actually the only ones I eat are the chicken noodle & the vegetable and noodle. They're both pretty much the same exact thing except the chicken of course. These soups are endorsed by weight watchers and get this the vegetable and noodle is only--- 0 points!(120 calories) && The chicken and noodle is only 1 point!(140 calories) As far as drinks go I have been drinking lots of water with the occasional green tea (0 calories!). Also I like to have a diet hot coco as a treat (20 calories!).
Now this is the weird part, I haven't noticed any substantial weight loss. But I mean I have to be losing something since I am eating really low calories (usually I only eat two soups a day), and I always feel full. I think maybe it's because I'm always bloated. But it's nice knowing that under all of this bloated blob, I am becoming thin.

I think I will update daily when school gets back in session on Monday.
No promises though!

-Alaska

Happy new year!

Sorry I didn't stick to my word, but I guess you should sorta expect that by now.
From now on I will stop promising blogs unless they are already written.

Anyway it's officially twenty-ten!
As you can see I have made some resolutions (via 43things.com, click on picture to see it larger).
I will try my best to keep up with number twenty nine for you guys!
Seriously I haven't updated you with really anything lately. To start off I found out Luke is just weird so I try not to talk to him.haha
&& well me and Josh have been talking since that football game but I never went up with my friend to see him. Ultimately this lead to us just telling each other that nothing could ever work between us because of the distance and trust issues. But we are still friends. Oh well, another one bites the dust.

I'm just gonna put that all behind me now.
New year.
New beginnings.
New endings.
New scandals.

-Alaska

Two days after.

Monday
2 Glasses of water
1 glass of pina colada juice
1 glass of tomato juice
1 can of matzo ball soup (160 calories)
1 brownie (150- 200 calories)
4 pieces of gum (20 calories)
Gym-3 miles

I hate my life.
Our school sells brownies and today my friend really wanted to split some of hers with me.
Since I usually always take it she would of been questioning if I didn't take it. I didn't eat all of it but who the fuck knows how many calories are packed into those things.

During 6th period soccer class I felt so dizzy. I need to start increasing my water intake for sure. After I came home from soccer class I had matzo ball soup. SO AMAZING. I used to not like it at all but I guess anything now will taste like heaven. I think I might have one bowl of soup everyday, but I don't know yet.

Today everyone kept on saying I looked so different and pretty? I haven't done anything different, I'm still an ugly fatass bitch?? So what the hell.


Everyday I succeed, I get one step closer to my goal.
To bad I'm going nowhere fast.

-Alaska

One day after.

Sunday
2 glasses of warm lemon/salt water
1 glass of water
1 glass of cranberry juice
2 pieces of gum (20 calories)

I did extremely good this day.
I wish I could do this everyday.:)

-Alaska

Binges & beginnings.

Since my last post I have just been on an ongoing binge.
If I give myself just a little bit of wiggle room I take more.
It's like if I eat 1 mini bagel, I suddenly need the whole package.
The only good thing I have done in these past few days is still go to the gym.
I need a plan, I need structure.
This is why today I decided to start a 4 day liquid/gum diet.
I don't know how I'll do, it's a little test I guess you could say.
I'm going to start keeping a food journal and at the end of each day I will post what I ate.
This will also help keep me more controlled because I don't like admitting my wrongs.

I want to be beautiful.
I want to be loved.
I want to be thin.

-Alaska