Why is it that recently I become more depressed on holidays than on any other days in the whole year? Yes, I am single which is why I may have feel this way yesterday, but on any holiday I do feel this way.For example; Christmas, Thanksgiving, and New Years. These holidays have been pure shit the last time I experianced them. I have come to the conclusion that it must be that I miss the days. You know what I'm referring to, don't you? When you would just play with your dogs outside all day.When you would actually get bored on weekdays. When you would put your feet up against the television and watch Blues Clues. When you made out with that guy under the stars on a cruise during Spring Break.
Okay, maybe that one wasn't during the days but damn was that a good day.
Even though that wasn't even a year ago I am dreading Spring Break because of it. You see my Spring Break this year will be utter crap compared to last, therefore I now hate Spring Break. It's funny no actually ironic how your happiest events in your life can in the long run make you feel the saddest. This Spring Break will just be another reminder of how my life is in the shit hole.32 more days, then it becomes a reality.I know this because I have a countdown in my planner.
Oops here I go again just blabbing about things that have happened long ago.
Okay back to where I am presently.I have been on the 5 bit diet for the past week about. For those of you who are not familiar with the 5 bite diet it is a diet in which you eat 5 bites for lunch and 5 bites for dinner. Now I stick to this pretty well and then the joyous Valentines holiday arrived. I don't like to blame my binges on other things.... but right now I am so beware.
All these Valentines Day marathons and I didn't even get through the first episode of the marathon before I went running for these chocolate turtles(technically called pixies) by Fannie May my grandparents always get us and my mom for valentines day. Needless to say I have had the downhill affect once I picked up my first chocolate turtle. Damn you Fannie may for making the most delicious chocolate I've ever tasted. Anyway on Valentines day I tried to stay on track again but those damn marathons got to me again and I went dunning for my chocolate turtles. A few hundred calories later I got a text from this guy asking if I would go on a date with him later that night.
The reason I stuffed my face in chocolate was because I had no one to spend Valentines Day with, but then I when I received that offer of a date I had to decline because I was bloated as hell from all the crap food I just ate.
Oh irony.
-Alaska
Okay, maybe that one wasn't during the days but damn was that a good day.
Even though that wasn't even a year ago I am dreading Spring Break because of it. You see my Spring Break this year will be utter crap compared to last, therefore I now hate Spring Break. It's funny no actually ironic how your happiest events in your life can in the long run make you feel the saddest. This Spring Break will just be another reminder of how my life is in the shit hole.32 more days, then it becomes a reality.I know this because I have a countdown in my planner.
Oops here I go again just blabbing about things that have happened long ago.
Okay back to where I am presently.I have been on the 5 bit diet for the past week about. For those of you who are not familiar with the 5 bite diet it is a diet in which you eat 5 bites for lunch and 5 bites for dinner. Now I stick to this pretty well and then the joyous Valentines holiday arrived. I don't like to blame my binges on other things.... but right now I am so beware.
All these Valentines Day marathons and I didn't even get through the first episode of the marathon before I went running for these chocolate turtles(technically called pixies) by Fannie May my grandparents always get us and my mom for valentines day. Needless to say I have had the downhill affect once I picked up my first chocolate turtle. Damn you Fannie may for making the most delicious chocolate I've ever tasted. Anyway on Valentines day I tried to stay on track again but those damn marathons got to me again and I went dunning for my chocolate turtles. A few hundred calories later I got a text from this guy asking if I would go on a date with him later that night.
The reason I stuffed my face in chocolate was because I had no one to spend Valentines Day with, but then I when I received that offer of a date I had to decline because I was bloated as hell from all the crap food I just ate.
Oh irony.
-Alaska
