Fuck it.

I've been on a continually downward spiral these past few days.
I'm so ashamed I can't even speak of it.
I'm still an ugly fat fuck, and guess what I found out today?
I can go down with my friend to see her boyfriend and Josh next weekend.
If I'm not as much of an embarrassment then I'll oblige.
But if not I'll say I'm at my dads house (I'm home bound for life there, long story...).
To make matters worse Thanksgiving and the holidays are coming up... Fucking fantastic.
It's not like I need motivation, I get plenty of that from my friends and my mom.
Just yesterday I skipped out on the gym because I planned to go to the New Moon premiere with some friends(GAY!).
She replies"Do you just want to become a fatass?"...."Oh wait too late for that."
It seems like no matter what I'm as fucked as a shit house rat.

-Alaska